giving up

where did I make mistake
I wonder
and what brought me here
at the crossroads of going under
I still believe
am I an Outlier
who refuses to follow rules?
a creator of my own destiny
I rather thought
it’s just that its significance is gone

I feel like being watched
like life was waiting for me to move
but I lost myself in its games
and don’t know anymore
where to
I guess I’ll stay at the crossroads
and pause
I’m so tired of myself
the whole thinking process drains me
I’m going to give up
whatever it means

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