to witness is not enough

You ask me if I’m not scared
– yes, I am, sometimes…
but the will to feel and to taste
surpasses the will to survive
I should be careful – you say
Does careful mean withdrawn? 
The demons created by fears
should never hold back my will
because:
I don’t want to live crawling
in the shadow of the empty days
or to cry my heart out
under the sheet of the dark night
So take control – I hear
– I won’t, no-one can
life is a lively force
to keep it on a leash would be rather insane
But I have my insights and faith
and it’s sufficient for me
being a witness to life won’t keep me alive
and I want to live

Witness

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