apology to myself

I’m sorry for not being you

for trying to escape and become somebody else’s shadow

for being unfaithful to your pure nature

and persistently avoiding to see the diamond

I’m sorry for all those delusions

I’ve created to make you feel worthier

for trying to find admiration, love and adoration

while it was enough to look at you better

I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve put you through

following the illusionary promises

I’m sorry for not listening to your whisper and prayers

playing the music of love in my head



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